I can sleep 5 hours in a night now and feel ok but before it didn’t matter if I would have 8-12 hours I would constantly feel exhausted.
Trying to fix the problem was. actually ignoring the problem hoping for it to go away!
I tired everything, so many supplements, changing my diet, cutting out other things that were draining me nothing was working!
I was pained deep inside and my emotions would get the better of me
It was a constant battle
My body (through my subconscious mind) was telling me something is wrong and I need to deal with it
My conscious mind was telling me to ignore it
I can do this by myself if I want to …but the personal development books and videos just were not enough
There was something more, something deeper
Eventually exhausted and deflated I contacted an amazing coach
I agreed to be coachable and then I got scared and didn’t get back to her for 3 months
Did I enjoy feeling this way?
Did it feel more normal to feel rubbish?
After the third month the problem was a big enough problem
I went back to her at rock bottom, a shell of the real me, convinced nothing and no one could help me
But that means I was open to trying something new
I told her about my journey and battle with myself and she listened
It was hard to talk about myself in this way but I knew I couldn’t do this by myself anymore
I had failed – a feeling I was only too familiar with
Most days I wanted to end the coaching sessions
I didn’t want to go there
Not emotionally nor mentally
I was so sick of feeling exhausted, sad, upset, guilty, fearful and angry all the time
I just wanted to feel ok
As I talked it became more painful and I would find it almost unbearable having to remind myself of who and what I am doing this for
The the breakthroughs started to happen and slowly but surely one dark cloud lifted one after another
My mind began to feel clear
I began to feel lighter
My relationships got better
Time with the children was a joy again
I was spiritually connected more then I had been in years
I was no longer carrying the weight or the baggage
It all just became so simple
I started to feel like myself
I felt grateful about literally everything
I felt happy
I felt content
I felt spiritual
I felt empowered
I felt ready to launch a business
I felt ready to help others
Everything just got better and stayed that way
And that’s what I have been feeling like ever since
There have been minor ups and downs – but now I know how to thrive in these situations
Not just survive
It’s normal to feel resistance to the process
But don’t deny yourself a gift
The gift of self esteem, self mastery and success
